Just miss a lots of thing in this 2-3 days. I will catch up anything i miss and hope i can do something better about that. No need to feel sad or anything. Just do what we should do.
Our financial plan will become better after i do a lots of thing and i guess i need to earn more money and reduce my debt slowly. No need to rush and i guess its time to focus.
I wonder what should i do if she really engaged in this 2-3 weeks. I know its hard for me to stop her to do that because she love that person. But i know she have problem with that person and its hard for me to do about that. Its up to her to choose between me and him. I know she love me too. But she love that person first before know about me and its hard for her to leave that person because of me. She know that person family and they in same town. Its super hard to undo what have done. The relationship of 2 family is too closed. Its hard me to break that unless that girl really want to choose me badly. Huh..
I just come back from mosque. Do terawih like always i did every year. Seems like that the only moment i can treat myself and make me feel calm. I just pray that she will turn to me. Its really bad to pray and ask something like that before she engaged? I only will give up if she marry with that person. I just do what i need to do and never cross the gate of hell. Huhu..
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Feel tired. Might be some of you will see my sorrow.
My friend ask me. Why i’m sad. Why i’m look crazy. I don’t know how to telling them. I just feel down. Not because of her. But for my work. I really in bad situation. Might be i need to do something about that.
Ps: Should i try other method?