I just come back from mosque. Do terawih like always i did every year. Seems like that the only moment i can treat myself and make me feel calm. I just pray that she will turn to me. Its really bad to pray and ask something like that before she engaged? I only will give up if she marry with that person. I just do what i need to do and never cross the gate of hell. Huhu..

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Finance, Money and Girl. This 3 thing are important in my life. I know we need many important thing in our life. Its hard to make a final decision. Sometimes we need to let it go and sometimes we cannot take all with us. Its hard and people love to play with that decision even we know its crazy thing. But why it keep happen and repeated every time in our life? I’m tired to thought about that and i believe she also tired like us.

Ps: I admit that sometimes we need to let it go..

What is sky juice or white water? Its just normal water that we drink everyday. I believe all people know about it and it have many advantages to drink a lots of that water. I’m not interested to tell you that good point of sky juice. But i admit that its really great and delicious. I believe you already drink that water that have taste like heaven. Hoho..i got that sentence from one korean drama series. But i forgot the title. Haha..

Ps: Sometimes, drink more water give you more energy than others drink. Forget about alcohol or coffee. Drink more white water and have great health today.

Sometimes, we need to look for others alternative. If you weak, nothing will comes to you. If you too strong, people afraid with you. So, be a little strong but not weak. Its enough if people know that you not weak. Its hard to make people understand about us, but you must tell them that you are strong person. With that, you can stand in this world even you think you actually really a weak person. Haha..acting strong also another part of this life. Sometimes, its needed.

So, what kind of alternative you seek? Mind to share with us?

How i can face her tomorrow and another days? She will leaving us in few days and i still cannot make her smiles about my feeling. If she thing i’m another useless guys who always talk crap, i guess its time for me to admit my loss. But i still don’t want to give up. I still believe God with me and her. So, i will try my best this few days and just hope she will give me a chance even i know its really hard..

Ps: I guess my finance management become better now. Thanks to my best friends who always help me. Just my love affair not really works. Hoho..

Sometimes, its disturb me. But i’m not really care about that because we have different thought, different heart, different belly and different mouth. Of course we have different reaction. Sometimes, become annoying is the best way to save your face. Just do it if you think it will be a good weapon to leave someone crazy who really want to talk with you at one dance dinner.

Ps: Human are crazy and unpredictable. We love that way. No need to change it.

Forget about that hungry stuff. I don’t want my belly become fat like others girl do. Eat without control, then angry when other guy said they are fat or useless. Think twice. People never said you fat if you not fat. The fact is cruel. So, just admit you are fat. You angry, but not doing anything. Just keep eating and eat. What the hell is that? Poeple angry, you eat. People sad, you also eat. When you will stop eating? Hey fat girl? Are you listen to me? I guess not because that girl not reading this pain blog. I guess, if you want to know tips how to become fat. You can ask that fat girl..

Forget it.

The good thing, i just eat some fried fish. So, thats that wild cat lucky day. I took that fried fish and give it to that wild cat. That cat eat fast and in few minutes, that cat ask for seconds! Haha..crazy but i start to like that cat.

To be honest, i’m hate cat. But this wild car manage to make me take care about him. Its male cat. But i hope this cat never make me angry. If he do that, sorry. You need to go. I hope that cat will never bully others cat around in this area. I know cat like lion. They have their own territory. If you step in others cat territory, you will see great fighting between two male cat until one cat run away from that place. It seems crazy, but thats their traditional method to choose a cat leader at certain area. Sounds like a mafia right? Hoho..

Ps: So, did my Wild Cat become like mafia? I don’t think so..

Why hate?

Because people love to hate each others. Because people don’t want someone looks down to him. Because people hate to lose and angry when they are losing. Sometimes, people hate to hate others people because its annoying. But they cannot admit it because its already become culture in their feeling. Its common sense if you start hate others people right?

Why pride?

All people have their own pride. Thats why they start protect their pride. If you feel shame, i believe you want to do something to cover that. If not, your pride will hurt and it might be make you start hate your own self. Its bad and pain. I know it because its happen before.

Ps: So, you have pride and hate? Proud it. Because not all people can feel it.

To me pain have a lots of meaning in my life. So, i decide to share and talk about pain, sad feeling, how to get hurts and why i got hurts and anything related with that keyword. Why? I love to talk about that or you can think i’m crazy. Its fine because being a Pain Blogger always in pain and crazy mode. So, no need to suprised. Its not about Melayu Boleh spirit or super natural power, its just i think its needed.

Ps: Ok, Pain Blogger is alive now.