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Life: I hate answering question

akazuma — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 19:08:01 +0000

People keep asking and asking until they get the answer they want. But i don’t think asking is always the best solution. I don’t know why. But that’s how i feel about that missing chapter. I wonder why girls love pink and men don’t. I wonder why girls love cheese cake but men love red bun. I wonder why girls love wearing sexy shirt but men love to wearing singlet. It full with wondering and suprises.

Now, if you think you have the answer of your question. Shout it clearly to your mind. If you think discussing your problem with other people will help you, just do that. But remember, do that clearly and never think that will solve your problem. If it solved, its good. If not, you might be create another disaster.

Ps: I love disaster and create problem. But i hate answering question.

Life: Roti Canai and Keyboard Weird Symptoms

akazuma — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 16:18:56 +0000

Yap. I know i’m not write anything this couple’s days. I hope i can do something about my blogging job. I already miss many job since i’m not active for a while. This is not me. But nothing i can do. Its already happen and i need to fix it. My laptop also have some problem. The keyboard show weird symptoms. I hope its not Aedes or HIV symptoms. Hoho..

Yap. My friends will get marry soon. Next year. I hope the best for that girl. She deserve it because she really love that person. All of us wish her happy with his partner. I hope she happy because she really happy when talk about that person. But i also found she sad sometimes. I hope that sad feeling will never crack anything in her heart. I hope.

Ps: Life become busy. I hope i still can eat “roti canai” somtimes..

Life: Can Money Buy Happiness?

akazuma — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 12:09:38 +0000

HUh, i’m happy because she talk with me. Its not easy task and i know its easy to make money compare when i manage to talk with her. I know it sound silly but i don’t care. I believe most of you know if its happen to yourself, you also will do the same thing, right?

Got RM200 because my friends pay me after he borrow my money few month ago. Thanks because never forgot to pay the same amount every month. I hope he will keep this momentum. Not like others loaner who never pay me back my money after borrow it for long time. Huh!

Ps: Life become harder everyday. Did you believe money can buy happiness? Did you agree? I’m agree for certain situation. Money really can buy happiness for many reason.

Life: Work as Spy or Fire Fighter?

akazuma — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 17:30:13 +0000

I’m happy because both of us manage to talk. I call her. She answer it happily. We talk like we fall in love for long time. Both of us know about our feeling. My feeling. She’s feeling. But both of us know our love is another part of art. Another part of life. Another part of suffer. Another part of hardness. Seems like its really hard for us together unless God help us. What can i do, just pray and keep pray. Hope my pray got accepted and its happen like i want, like we want.

We know that we cannot be together. But its fine with me to be at his side forever and back up her with anything i can. Its difficult task compare work as spy or fire fighter job. Its better i guess. What we need to do, keep our distance and never let others people know about our feeling. But i know, its hard like titanium stone..

Ps: One question. Did both of us love each other?

La Tahzan..

akazuma — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 08:15:41 +0000

Ps: Something for us. Together..

Hosting Problem

akazuma — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 23:23:18 +0000

Seems some of my hosting have weird behaviour. I guess i need to ask that hosting why its happen. Might be i have done something wrong with that. Huh..

Need to come back today. My vacation already reach the limit. So, need to work and work like crazy again. Its better than i never do anything. So, i hope more people will happy today. Including her. I hope she happy..

Why they keep Cheating others people?

akazuma — Fri, 16 Oct 2009 13:25:36 +0000

I hate people who keep cheating when they try to make money online. Even they cheat or not, you suppose not to follow their step. But some of you doesn’t care. As long as you get money, you don’t care about that if others people got hurt. Its really true? You really want to be that stupid person?

Ps: Some people said, they don’t care become stupid or devil person. As long as they not hungry. Huh?

Hope: Chemistry of Girl

akazuma — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 17:48:05 +0000

I keep looking for some hope. I guess its time to leave. But i can’t do that. What should i do? Did i need to beg to get her back or what? Its something i hate to do. But its better than i regret forever. I already lose someone before and i also losing another girl before. This new girl, i hope it can be forever. Its something i can’t forget even both of us know we like each other. Both of us considered that we really good friends and have chemistry. Seems we know how to answer each other. But its hard..

Did you believe with Fate?

akazuma — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 17:50:24 +0000

Try my best to do my job with great feeling. She got accident. Did you think God try to test her? I hope not and i hope she know what she need to do. She not weak. She a strongest girl i ever meet before. Just hope she was fine. WHat she need to know, i’m happy if she happy.

Anyway, did you believe with fate? If yes, why?

Gate of Hell

akazuma — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 13:58:06 +0000

I wonder what should i do if she really engaged in this 2-3 weeks. I know its hard for me to stop her to do that because she love that person. But i know she have problem with that person and its hard for me to do about that. Its up to her to choose between me and him. I know she love me too. But she love that person first before know about me and its hard for her to leave that person because of me. She know that person family and they in same town. Its super hard to undo what have done. The relationship of 2 family is too closed. Its hard me to break that unless that girl really want to choose me badly. Huh..

I just come back from mosque. Do terawih like always i did every year. Seems like that the only moment i can treat myself and make me feel calm. I just pray that she will turn to me. Its really bad to pray and ask something like that before she engaged? I only will give up if she marry with that person. I just do what i need to do and never cross the gate of hell. Huhu..

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