I still here, just forget to share something to all of you about my life and stuff. I just wonder if i should continue writing in this blog or just leave it like that.

Then, i decide, i will keep this blog and will update any post if i have time. It’s something hard because it need some part from my routine and task. I hope i can do something and done better next time.

Ps: Wonder..what kind of smiles she will show it to me..

Wait. wait. I will tell you more. But i need to tell you one thing. Yahh. We might be like each other. But i still don’t know if we already have same feeling or not. Or we just pity each other or not. Anything can happen but like others people said, its much more better if i ask her personally. Might be i will ask her in right time and i will take a chance to do that in good time. No need to rush because she still answer all my weird question. All girls know, if some men try to message them and message again in few days, then start to calling them. What is that means? Easily, that men fall in love with that girls.

So, i will never do that. Wait. I already tell her with my body language that i like her. Might be just giving me a chance. Might be she also waiting the right time to tell me that she not like me. Maybe. Anything can happen. Yahh. Anything can happen. Worse or good. Anything..

Ps: Just in this 2-3 days. I’m busy with my offline work.

Last year and another 2nd last year, i never celeberate that day because i have no one to celebrate. To be honest, i runaway when some cute girl ask me to date for that day. Remember, i hate that day. That’s why i run. I don’t care what they will thought about me. But if i hate something, i will never do that. This is not a way to show your love to someone you love. It was many method to do that. We can do that everyday. Just we need to do that first.

This year, i never intend to do that even if that cute girl ask me for date. We already saw each other for first time. I hope for 2nd time, it was the time she confess that she love me. I know both of us still puzzle with our weird relationship. We don’t want many people know about our relationship. We know each other in weird connection. I love her voice. I believe she also love my voice. Just i admit she just too quiet. It was hard to make she laugh. I try my best to do that in natural way. If not, she will never laugh or smiles. She tell me, it was hard to make she smiles and i manage to do that. She also tell me that it was hard for her to talk with anyone even at her workplace unless if someone talk to her first. The crazy thing is she never have any his workplace phone number! This is another weirdest thing i know about this cute girl. Haiya, you should know at least one or two person. If not, it will be hard for you.

Ps: Please, you need to wake up and do your best.

Now, if you think you have the answer of your question. Shout it clearly to your mind. If you think discussing your problem with other people will help you, just do that. But remember, do that clearly and never think that will solve your problem. If it solved, its good. If not, you might be create another disaster.

Ps: I love disaster and create problem. But i hate answering question.

For me, its just another signal. Might be you late to pray. Or your forgot about something. You miss your solat or anything. Its a signal. What kind of signal? You need to answer that yourself. I have no answer for that. But thats what happen to me few minutes ago. I just go and blogging about my experience. Hehe..

Ps: Believe it or not. I try to give my elbow shot to someone or “thing” who sit at my back. Seems like that “thing” manage to gone like that. So, nothing happen and i wake up early..

Got RM200 because my friends pay me after he borrow my money few month ago. Thanks because never forgot to pay the same amount every month. I hope he will keep this momentum. Not like others loaner who never pay me back my money after borrow it for long time. Huh!

Ps: Life become harder everyday. Did you believe money can buy happiness? Did you agree? I’m agree for certain situation. Money really can buy happiness for many reason.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I..
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Ps: I found this poem. I read it again and again. I found something interesting. One of that interesting thing is how to make option and how to not make option in your life. Sounds stupid, but i believe you know about that, right?

Ps: Simple picture but show different meaning to us. Did you agree?

We know that we cannot be together. But its fine with me to be at his side forever and back up her with anything i can. Its difficult task compare work as spy or fire fighter job. Its better i guess. What we need to do, keep our distance and never let others people know about our feeling. But i know, its hard like titanium stone..

Ps: One question. Did both of us love each other?

Ps: Life is orange and yellow. Its pretty picture, right?