Life of Akazuma

Seems like she ignore me today. Its fine. I believe that day will come and i hope God with me. Sometimes, i feel like she like me. Sometimes, i don’t think she will love me. But our relationship goes like that. Seems nothing happen but people around us notice something already happen between us. We never want to admit it. But it seems like we can’t run away because people keep talking around behind us.

Why its happen like that? It’s that another part of love story. I’m not really sure. But i know that something going happen to me. Either i will crush or she will happy. Or something similiar like that. Its fine. When the time comes, just accept it and do our best. I hope she always happy even i want she share that happiness with me forever..

Talking something like this in this blog make me feel sick. But i have no alternative to show my feeling to her. I never tell any word like “love” or “like” to her. But both of us know that we already have something in our hearts. Thats why i keep my momentum and hope she will accidently said she love me. Haha..

Sounds crazy. But thats my hope. Ok. Need to go. Need to doing my duty. 5 times perday.

I need to admit that i have feeling that she love me. I know about that because she also show a same response many times. Its hard and i guess she also can’t deny that. But both of us just need something like hint or momentum to make us admit it together. I wonder how that can happen and how it will happen. It become worst everyday because both of us try to show our feeling, but its still not happen. Its sounds stupid and like another fairy tales, right? Huuu..

How i can face her tomorrow and another days? She will leaving us in few days and i still cannot make her smiles about my feeling. If she thing i’m another useless guys who always talk crap, i guess its time for me to admit my loss. But i still don’t want to give up. I still believe God with me and her. So, i will try my best this few days and just hope she will give me a chance even i know its really hard..

Ps: I guess my finance management become better now. Thanks to my best friends who always help me. Just my love affair not really works. Hoho..

How you feel when someone love you? Its really hard right? But when i feel that, its really like this earth are under my control and you like you wan to buy anything you want or you think this world is nothing compare with your love. Haha, its really super happy moment to anyone including me. But its really great to be in love?

Love is not Melayu Boleh feeling. Its different and might be its against what melayu boleh feeling or spirit does. So, think deeply how love can change you and how love really can make you to be different. Huh!

Ps: People love to love each others. But they always forgot to love their ownself. Agree?