Life of Akazuma

Still feel ackward. Still feel bad and i wonder why its happen this time. Sometimes i think i just create a big problem in my life. But it make me think i just failed again and again. I guess its time for me to look for others.

About that girl who always fight with me everyday, we become numb for a while. She too busy with her study and i’m busy with my work. I need to work a lots and do something about money. People keep asking for money and i believe many people want to make money online and fix their finance problem.

Girls have many problem. One of that is money. When they have no money, they will think a solution. So, man is the best solution to solve their problem. So, how girls can offer man to get that money? Its simple, right? Its sex. All men seek for sex. But for best relationship is married. You can get sex, money and partner of life. Thats why i hope, i and her will married. She know my feeling very well. But she know she need to do many thing if she gonna accept me. I leave it to her. To accept me or not..

Seems like she ignore me today. Its fine. I believe that day will come and i hope God with me. Sometimes, i feel like she like me. Sometimes, i don’t think she will love me. But our relationship goes like that. Seems nothing happen but people around us notice something already happen between us. We never want to admit it. But it seems like we can’t run away because people keep talking around behind us.

Why its happen like that? It’s that another part of love story. I’m not really sure. But i know that something going happen to me. Either i will crush or she will happy. Or something similiar like that. Its fine. When the time comes, just accept it and do our best. I hope she always happy even i want she share that happiness with me forever..

Talking something like this in this blog make me feel sick. But i have no alternative to show my feeling to her. I never tell any word like “love” or “like” to her. But both of us know that we already have something in our hearts. Thats why i keep my momentum and hope she will accidently said she love me. Haha..

Sounds crazy. But thats my hope. Ok. Need to go. Need to doing my duty. 5 times perday.

Still waiting for her message. Its really pain. But nothing i can do about that. So, i just need to do something today before its ending like stupid day. I like to go out and find some food first. Its really crazy. When i’m not doing anything, i will hungry. I don’t like it. But i will do something about that before it eat me.

Forget about that hungry matter. Sometimes, it happen before we know about that. Its crazy situation and i wonder how long i can take it. My financial plan goes well. I find what i need and i also need to increase my money with all my money maker program. I need to make money and work hard.Just hope i can do that. If not, i’m going to lose something. She also might be run away if find out that i have bad financial plan. Haha, thats crazy thought, right? Sometimes, people become tired because of that stupid reason. That was we afraid for..

Ps: Bad me. I really love her. Why..