Life of Akazuma

I need to admit that i have feeling that she love me. I know about that because she also show a same response many times. Its hard and i guess she also can’t deny that. But both of us just need something like hint or momentum to make us admit it together. I wonder how that can happen and how it will happen. It become worst everyday because both of us try to show our feeling, but its still not happen. Its sounds stupid and like another fairy tales, right? Huuu..

How i can face her tomorrow and another days? She will leaving us in few days and i still cannot make her smiles about my feeling. If she thing i’m another useless guys who always talk crap, i guess its time for me to admit my loss. But i still don’t want to give up. I still believe God with me and her. So, i will try my best this few days and just hope she will give me a chance even i know its really hard..

Ps: I guess my finance management become better now. Thanks to my best friends who always help me. Just my love affair not really works. Hoho..

What is others people first impression when they meet you at first time. They happy or they thought you are someone different? Did they think you are friendly and nice person or not? I believe many people have different thought about that. But before you think bad about someone, better you know about that person. Talk with that person for a while and think. I know we cannot gather many information about one person in one night. But anything can happen in one night. So, if you saw handsome guy, just go and talk. Who know he might be your dream guy which will marry you in future? We never know our fate, right?

Sometimes, its disturb me. But i’m not really care about that because we have different thought, different heart, different belly and different mouth. Of course we have different reaction. Sometimes, become annoying is the best way to save your face. Just do it if you think it will be a good weapon to leave someone crazy who really want to talk with you at one dance dinner.

Ps: Human are crazy and unpredictable. We love that way. No need to change it.

Seems like i take a good rest today. Just go out and eat something delicious. Even sometimes i don’t want to eat but after i finish my meal, i feel different. Being hungry and not hungry are different and difficult situation. When you hungry, you really want to eat like crazy. But when you not hungry, you still can eat like always. So, what the different? Human really unique creature. I admit it myself.

Forget about that hungry stuff. I don’t want my belly become fat like others girl do. Eat without control, then angry when other guy said they are fat or useless. Think twice. People never said you fat if you not fat. The fact is cruel. So, just admit you are fat. You angry, but not doing anything. Just keep eating and eat. What the hell is that? Poeple angry, you eat. People sad, you also eat. When you will stop eating? Hey fat girl? Are you listen to me? I guess not because that girl not reading this pain blog. I guess, if you want to know tips how to become fat. You can ask that fat girl..

Forget it.