Life of Akazuma

I know its really scary movie for some people, but i like to share with you. I believe some of you might be have experience in your sleep, right? Someone will push your body, force you, never let you wake up and you feel your body really have like elephant at your back. Did you ever feel like that when you still haf-half sleeping? If yes, i doubt if you know what happen. Normal people will said that is normal think. Its another game of sleep. But for weak people, they will think that is another horror experience in their life..

For me, its just another signal. Might be you late to pray. Or your forgot about something. You miss your solat or anything. Its a signal. What kind of signal? You need to answer that yourself. I have no answer for that. But thats what happen to me few minutes ago. I just go and blogging about my experience. Hehe..

Ps: Believe it or not. I try to give my elbow shot to someone or “thing” who sit at my back. Seems like that “thing” manage to gone like that. So, nothing happen and i wake up early..

I’m happy because both of us manage to talk. I call her. She answer it happily. We talk like we fall in love for long time. Both of us know about our feeling. My feeling. She’s feeling. But both of us know our love is another part of art. Another part of life. Another part of suffer. Another part of hardness. Seems like its really hard for us together unless God help us. What can i do, just pray and keep pray. Hope my pray got accepted and its happen like i want, like we want.

We know that we cannot be together. But its fine with me to be at his side forever and back up her with anything i can. Its difficult task compare work as spy or fire fighter job. Its better i guess. What we need to do, keep our distance and never let others people know about our feeling. But i know, its hard like titanium stone..

Ps: One question. Did both of us love each other?

Seems like she ignore me today. Its fine. I believe that day will come and i hope God with me. Sometimes, i feel like she like me. Sometimes, i don’t think she will love me. But our relationship goes like that. Seems nothing happen but people around us notice something already happen between us. We never want to admit it. But it seems like we can’t run away because people keep talking around behind us.

Why its happen like that? It’s that another part of love story. I’m not really sure. But i know that something going happen to me. Either i will crush or she will happy. Or something similiar like that. Its fine. When the time comes, just accept it and do our best. I hope she always happy even i want she share that happiness with me forever..

Talking something like this in this blog make me feel sick. But i have no alternative to show my feeling to her. I never tell any word like “love” or “like” to her. But both of us know that we already have something in our hearts. Thats why i keep my momentum and hope she will accidently said she love me. Haha..

Sounds crazy. But thats my hope. Ok. Need to go. Need to doing my duty. 5 times perday.